lately, i surprised myself by how independent i have learnt to be. for example, i went out alone last sunday to have lunch and did some shopping. initially, i was rather uncomfortable with the weird stares i occassionally noticed when i entered to a restaurant to pamper myself. that was when i felt so lonesome and craved for some company.

yet surprisingly, i have grown used to such solace. reading a good book, sipping on cool iced drink, people-watching from a cosy corner... it's been quite a while since i feel liberated by the constant control of time and people. i guess this is what i really needed away from singapore. living in your own world, things can become less complicated and it can get therapeutic in many ways. im learning to push away the boundaries of fear to become more independent and i must say, im loving the process of it.

the fact that i have quite substantial amount of free time on my hands, i've been doing some thinking; soul-searching you may call it. as a result (i guess there was a link), i made a few pretty extraordinary dreams, some are really good (i wish i knew the ending to it) and some i prayed i wouldnt dream of them again. i read from somewhere before that dreams can actually an illustration of your most inner thoughts, fears and joy.

one particular dream really set me thinking. it felt so real. i wished it was real. no kidding, i think i was smiling in my dream. it was just too perfect.